Tomorrow Is My Birthday!!!

well actually 40 minutes away is my birthday.......

and my reasons to be unhappy are :

1) I am daily addressed by one rather impertinent junior as "hot buri" (for those unaware of college/bengali lingo, that means sexy, old woman with the emphasis on old) and horror of all horrors, I'm getting used to it!!!!!
2) At the end of twenty one years (which will actually be at 11.35 A.M. I.S.T. tomorrow) I am approximately double what I was at the end of fourteen years.......what will I be in say another seven years.......the mind boggles!
3) And this is the sad little thought that sort of takes out its own handkerchief and sobs into it.........sometime at the end of tomorrow there will be people who will umm not wish me..........twenty one years is long enough to pick up quite a few ghosts........

But! and this is the all important but :

1) I happen to be knowing two simply adorable people......... cassandra mortmain and sohini, take a bow......... who today sat me down and ordered me to bunk all classes and all work tomorrow because they insist on taking me out to lunch........this be because I have bored everyone nearly to death by telling them how I have hardly any friends and therefore will do nothing on the special day.........but seriously, sniff sniff, I was so touched!!!
2) Also I just saw, this is what cassy wassy has done....... aaaaaaawwww......thankoopie..........
3) On a less sentimental but more practical note.............I have a birthday top/kurta thingy with a very plunging neckline, so old age be damned and bedamned!!!

twelve o'clock came and went
bringing with it my dad, who went from room to room switching on every light there is in this house, and believe me there are quite a few!!!
and then mommy and daddy sang to me
a little out of tune true
but I'm still sniffling out of sentimentality.........

and Baba just told me that all those years back, in all the hurry and worry of getting my mother to hospital, there was just one moment when Ma looked up calmly and said "I want a daughter"

I am happy.......not just not-un-happy but happy